Saturday, January 30, 2010
I Miss You Papaw!
When I first see Papaw’s picture on the background of my computer I can’t help but smile. It feels like an instant hug from someone who loves me unconditionally and believes I can do far more than I myself often believe.
The day I took the picture he was sitting in his truck under a shade tree reading the newspaper. He was so cute that I had to take a picture. Once I did he turned and said, “Youuuuuuuuuu” with a cute little grin and a sparkle in his eyes. I quickly snapped another one, clueless as to how much that picture would later mean to me. Now that he isn’t here physically, it is a much needed moment frozen in time, one that is a reminder of many other healing and encouraging moments with Papaw.
Time with Papaw was just good for the soul. His godly characteristics are still pointing me to a God that is more than good for the soul. He had a quiet confidence in God that carried over into his view of those around him.
In such a busy world where cell phones and computers provide constant access, it is rare that we can have a complete conversation without interruption. But with Papaw, you had his undivided attention, focus, and subtle nudging in the right direction. When telling him about how hard it was to manage a job and meet the needs of our five-year-old, he suggested opening my own accounting business. “Be your own boss” he said, with no hesitation as to my ability to make it work. Now when I look at the business decal on the van, or add a new customer, it is like having that little wink of confidence from Papaw telling me that I can do all things through Christ.
Even though I miss him terribly, somehow the confidence, hope, and faith that he passed on is still here making me feel like he is close by. And, more importantly, his life is still teaching me about the love our Heavenly Father has for us. I love you Papaw!!!!!